Reflections
on Ecclesiastes
Chapter
One
This
week I started studying the book of Ecclesiastes. In chapter one
Solomon concluded that everything in life is meaningless, “completely
meaningless.” Solomon tried very hard to find happiness in his life
and to figure out what creates happiness. I have always found
happiness to be elusive. To me happiness is just a temporary emotion
as is anger or jealousy. Some days you wake up and feel good and some
days you feel the exact opposite. I suffer from depression and that
in itself makes me a moody person. I have spent the much greater part
of my life being less than happy. I have learned over the years not
to make being happy a goal in my life. On days when I feel very sad
or discouraged I have learned to just accept it. In other words,
“This too shall pass.” I firmly believe that biochemistry plays a
major role in depression and other mood disorders. I am not at all
opposed to using medications to make your life more bearable.
In
Chapter One of Ecclesiastes King Solomon displays all the signs of a
man who is depressed. He sounds burned out, tired and world weary.
Solomon has tried various avenues to achieve happiness and meaning in
his life. I believe that part of his problem was that he was taking
life entirely too seriously. Most of us mere mortals are not going to
make any earth shaking positive changes to the world. The best we can
hope for is to have made a small but significant positive difference
in our small circle of influence. If we believe that we have made
some positive impact in our circle of influence we should be
satisfied. I have found that to be hard on myself is just to invite
pain and discouragement. To compare myself to others is also a recipe
for disaster. Today, I have had a good day and am happy with that. I
am going to try to relish every moment of it. I am not going to try
to analyze why I feel better today than I have felt on a lot of other
days. I cannot recreate today and clone it for the rest of my life.
Each day is different and I do not know what tomorrow is going to
bring. I thank God that I was happy today for whatever reason. I just
know it was by the grace of God.


